It is just a matter of days....Can't wait for all this to end, then I am off to Germany for a week to play with Pigs! Uggghhh....What an irony. Pigs are haram, but they are actually one species that is closest to us. That is why, most enzyme based medicines are cultures in Pigs, we use pigs valves when ours are buggered, and practically everything from the pig is usable. How does that work?

But thankfully for our magnificent religion, when all else is not available to eat, or use, or in medical emergencies, no other choice, we can't help it, using these oinky products are permissible.

My head is throbbing from studying at 3am this morning. Pacemaker timing! Sigh, few more days Farah. It has to be done. After that, I am free to enjoy the rest of my time at work. And the first thing I am going to do, is to work lots and lots and lots. Yah, when it is not studying, it is working. How fun is that.

I work so that I have a comfortable life, so that my family is comfortable. So, never mind the sacrifice. It is worth it to see everyone happy with a new gift, or a surprise.

I won't be able to come home to Singapore this year. Maybe After April next year coz I am going to use all my Annual Leaves to visit Europe this year. Germany, France, Sweden, Holland, Denmark, Norway for now. I want that stamp on my passport. It has to be done. Insya allah.

I just want to be happy, and if this is what makes me happy, so be it.

Adik, I dreamt of you last night. But I can't remember what i dreamt about. Maybe because mum sent your photo to me.....So, this is my brother people:

-PENCES POUR MOYE DV